* lyn : )

♥ Tuesday, May 30, 2006 ♥

2:36:00 PM

I'M LATE FOR SCHOOL TODAY!!!!
OMG*
cant believe it

this will be the second time i'm late
last tym was sec2 mass run
and now sch

=P

but b'cos i've been a nice soul
i bright up sm1 day =)

cant believe i'm such nice soul
hahas =D

how i wish my i broke my leg =P
then u'll be there to carry me to sch =P

♥ Monday, May 29, 2006 ♥

5:07:00 PM

today chinese o lvl sucks like hell. i know crude words are not meant to b said. but who cares. =D it's really tough. i cant imagine tt's the standard. or is it tt my chinese now sucks a great deal? haiz.

finally, the end of the studying shall last a lil longer. nothing can actually be done for my chinese already. let me have a break for a week or so before i goanna have some great studying out wif panda. =)

some days we shall hit the beach! yay!! i cant wait for tt. i miss the beach so so much.

♥ Sunday, May 28, 2006 ♥

3:21:00 PM

yes. it's of NO use to tink of those bloody sickening matters. it doesnt make me any lesser problems or happier. go ahead, whatever u ppl desire. i'm in no mood to give a damn to them. pieces of irratants.

i'm starting to be very paranoid. inside me , there seemed to be a great mistrust i've in you. i know i'm wrong to say this, wrong to feel tt way. but wad more can i do? u teach me how.

school holis are finally here. but i'm pretty sad =( more and more schools. it's such a "good" sch holis for all the sec4s. but i heard a good news. temasek have sch from eight to four. HURRAY! oh god, i'm mean. =D but i thot better off schools werent haven any sch?? hmm.

i wan to hit the beach cos i miss it alot.
i wan sm1 to send me home w/o fail each day.
i wan the ipod nano cos my mp3 goanna spoil le.
i wan to lose weight but it seems it never happen.
i wan to stop the yayalism from ppl cos it irriates me.
i wan to run away from reality cos i'm scared of the truth.
i wan to run away yet i'm still trying to let things go.
i wan to learn how to swim cos i loathe the facts.
i wan to end my ~~life~~ but i didnt know how to.
i wan to overcome the barrier of hights.
i wan to change sm1's life.
i wan to wed to come.

there's actually too much things i really wan.
it's really hard to please a person.

some nice songs-
1. ugly by sugababes
2. hips dun lie by shakira
3. believe me by fort minor
4. catch my waves by click five
5. beautiful ones by suede
6. when i'm gone by eminem
7. since u been gone by kelly clarkson
8. scars by papa roach
9. stupid girls by pink
10. remember the name by fort minor
11. no promises by shane ward
12. push the button by sugababes
13. tt's my goal by shane ward
14. my boo by usher
15. single by Natasha Bedingfield
16. dance, dance by fall out boy

check them out urself x)

♥ Friday, May 26, 2006 ♥

6:20:00 PM

i demand an explaination.

i've NEVER been mean to you in any way.
there's too much times u have misunderstood me.... if u didnt know.

i've got too frustrated whenever i saw those stuffs.
i know i'm right cos i'm sure what i'm tinking.

the misunderstandings you have in me has gone too deep
i know, i shld b explaining what i'm tinking
but what use do they have?
absolutely nothing.

so why shld i explain all those
and make every1 unhappy?

i'm NOT a sadist
i DUN get joy from seeing ppl down.

5:35:00 PM

it's been a week of intensive chinese and tt's driving me mad! it's too hot in the hall and worst still, we had to do 2 sets of test papers a day. it can really drive me mad. finally, the big day will come soon.. MON, 29th May. please bring along NRIC and verification slips. i'm worried whether i'll have mon blues or smth.

jus got back our report book today. oh wells. results are already expected. so wad more can i say other than i'm disappointed? still failed a subject. i expected somethin better.. at least dun fail any subj and better L1B4 and L1R5. mr lai old already. type wrong word in my report slip!!! btw, who've an A for CME? i tink i heard sm1 said every1 got a B..

i tink we have a wonderful english teacher, mdm yasmin. she seemed (i'm not sure whether it is or not..) to be very nice towards my class. my thoughts on her seemed to be diff b4 she entered my class.. but she told us she's "brutal". oh wells. look out for my next half a year post and deemed it urself whether she's or not. =D she's like so nice with perfect english. interesting.

her first few lessons, i dunnoe wad got over me when i said "memoirs of a geisha". i think mayb i wasnt really listening and then suddenly i said tt and every1 gave me a blur look. hahas. sounds a lil malu.. =(

btw, the schedule for o lvl exams are out already. check out for them on ur left.

i arent looking forward to my june holis. it's pretty bad. having to go sch for 2weeks, having to study and have holiday homework at LEAD {Login in: NRIC number, School ID: TPSS, Password: NRIC number} but there's smt to look forward.. 31st may, 6th june and 15th june. on top of tt, i've found sm1 who can study with me thru the jun holis! =)

xiong mao, let's hit the beach someday!! i'll wait for u de. i wont go there alone x) changi beach, east coast, pasir ris? anything.

x the story of a small boy + small gal in the small world x

♥ Thursday, May 25, 2006 ♥

4:10:00 PM

-URGENT IN NEED FOR MARROW/BLOOD DONORS-

I have got to know that there is this 2years 4months old boy being contracted with a bone marrow disease "Aplastic Anemia", causing blood to form stem cells that are unable to produce enough platelets and blood. This boy is my friend's, so on and so forth friend's son. The parents are seeking for kind hearted people to donate all kinds of blood but best with AB+ to hospital to help this 2yrs 4mths old child. The father sincerely hope that AB+ blood people could try to match with his son's marrow to save his life. So please spread the news to your family members, relatives and friends, hoping that one of them may be in match with his marrow.

According to the father, he was told by the doctor that actually any blood type can match his son's marrow. It is a tissue they are loooking for in the blood. To look out for a match, it is 1 out of 20k. therefore to increase his chance, anyone who is willing to donate blood, do give this child a chance. As the blood bank do not have enough blood platelets doner, any blood is a chance for him. Even if the blood does not matched his, the blood can also be a life saver to the others!

For blood donors making their way to donate blood to Ken, please go to the blood bank at collection center HSA building and tell them that you want to donate platelets with HLA typing match KEN CHEW JIAN HAN a 2years 4months old boy. I/C T0402637Z, warded 7523 in kk children hospital. please call 62130626 before going down. Operating hours of the blood bank at HSA as well as marrow bone office : tuesday to thursday, 9 to 6.30pm. Friday 9 to 8pm. Saturaday 9 to 4.30pm. Sunday 9 to 2pm. Moday close. Doner enquiry 62130626.

The father would like to thank all those who supported and helped him. About Ken's condition, he had platelets transfusion over the weekends and his condition has been stablised. He still needs to do transfusion regularly for 3 to 6 months. Therefore pls continue to donate regularly as Ken is still not out of danger. The HSA had told them that the blood expires in 4days, hence advised to donate at staggered timing. For those who has AB+ type, they sincerely hope you can be a marrow donor as that will increase his chance to find a match and save his life.
Although we do not know them directly, we get to know such case. We can't just do nothing, all human beings have compassion, and it is time for action too. On behalf of the Chew family, i thank you all for helping out.

adapted from: juvone

♥ Monday, May 22, 2006 ♥

9:45:00 PM

this is bad. bad things happened today.

my chinese results are getting from bad to worst. =( =( =( and the worst part is tt i can do nothing abt it except to sigh when my results are back. my newspaper acticles are like shit nowadays. shi lao shi say i wrote out of pt.. got alot already.. i dun noe wad more can i do.

and now, i failed my geo p2. *sigh* the paper which i've focus alot on.. and still, i cant pass it well. wad more can i say. 47%. well well. and now i can even fail my amath now. i'm so angry with myself. how can i do tt??????!!!!!!! i can afford to fail sh (=X) but not amath!! it's NOT going to happen in O lvl. thou shld not fail any subject. < --- what my mum and me wants. and it's a bad option to go n eat shilin xiao chi. it's jus bad cos i absolutely didnt want to see a person, and worst still trying to reject him. in the first place, he's the one tt rejected all my sms`es so why shld i b a nice soul. good ppl doesnt get wad they shld. i hate the things u did to me, and u definately know what i'm refering. ~~whatever la.~~ i felt disgusted by what u did to me.

got scolded by mr bang early in the morning. even b4 sch stuffs. it wasnt like as though we are totally at fault. the naive mind of mine simply jus tell me to wait at the staircase of block g-ext and see what he wants. i wasnt even sure whether it's for everyone to assemble or wad. fine. very much thnaks to the person who did tt.

then got scolded by mdm ho the minute we get into the class. jus b cos we r scolded by mr bang, she didnt have to add in.. GRRR. luckily, i knew i had to spend my time wisely when i got irriated. so i ended up by writing out the solutions. =D and it ended up tt we didnt have any math lessons except tt she emphasis on what's acute, reflect and obtuse angle. *interesting...

chinese intensive class is terrible. having to do tough papers in the hall which is super hot!! sweating like mad when i do finish the test papers. and they are freaking tough. i hate doing them. it's really like a waste of time... =X

rain keep falling down the sky. only making my mood worst and worst. i really wished to get drench like mad and then have a bad bad fever. at least, tt will allow me to have a good rest and be freed from the suffering i had.

i think i'm hallucinating. when there wasnt anything, i thot there was. certain things i saw at a place wasnt even there at all. this is very bad. cos halluncinations isnt good. i feel as though as if i'm like a drug addict. =X but the pt is tt i didnt even take them! i shldnt b hallucinating. i guess it's jus temporally.

at this rate i'm gg, i tink my this mth sms bill is going to exceed like mad. =P nvm, talking to the big panda really can bright up my day =) and i tink i've bright up his day today cos i said he wasnt fat x) it's true he wasnt lor. he jus didnt believe me in the 1st place..

today's day is pretty bad.

♥ Sunday, May 21, 2006 ♥

4:27:00 PM

boredom really strikes me today!! after doing like 12pages of phys for the past 3 days, i can really die from doing tt. and the best part is tt i still haven complete the whole damn set of papers. it's so tough and many spaces can be seen on my answer script.. GRRRR. why cant i jus b more brainy??!!

the week ahead me looks bleak. more and more 'intensive training' for chinese. i wonder whether this is really effective anot. for languages it shld be whether u noe or u dun wad.. got use to go there and do meh? also do and do. o lvl also got no use. i really wish this thing is optional. then i will choose not to go cos it goanna waste my time. =D it's not as tough we're having the same passage or question during o lvl. =(

and i slept for 6hours only and i'm so energtic... *gosh* there mus b smt wrong with my body system.. and the big panda sleep more hours than me! u really a big panda!! heh. x) BIG PANDA!! (i know u will come by here for the blog music..) u be a big panda, filled with milk and say hello to me. then i can eat u up! HAHAS. u know wad i mean =P

sleep hao hao at night hor.. later ur mum use violence on u again.. =D it's really not good.. u mus tell her.. but mus lead u back to bed (^.^)

time is running out.

1:30:00 AM

i've been a good lil girl and study for exams.. looking at my results.. i tink i've done pretty well already. cos i used to fail 4 subjects. sigh. why's like everyone's pressuring me to study when i'm very pressurised already!!

Pressure = Force / Area
high amt of force = high pressure. so.. who's giving me so much force? is it tt the earth gravitational field strength is too great? then, i shall go to the moon.. abt 1.7 N/square metres. oh man.. tt's lame.

i tink i goanna die from studying phys. it's so hard.. too much things to study.. and o lvl is really at my door step.. i jus dun seemed to wake up!! i know, mye shld b a wake up call for me already.. but no.. i'm not really awake yet.. still the old me. and now the chinese o lvl is coming in a few weeks time. i miss gg to the airport to study... going there to hav fun.. it's really nice.. i tink i goanna go there to study for o lvl again. x)

mdm lim's 18pages of phys goanna kill me soon =X i've been doing them lately yet i still haven finish them.. i tink i cant even do it finish on mon.. i tink morning my day will b burnt by this again. it's so difficult. still need to draw.. very lazy leh.

recently the weather have been freaking hot.. GRRRR. cant stand it when i'm out even when i'm not in the hot sun also will sweat. it's the humidilty rate i tink.. tt's making it so freaking hot. i tink the global temperature is rising!! my hse's highest temperature is 30.8. i tink i goanna die from dehydration.

hey ppl, do tag ok? dun come and look look.. tag hor.. it's wierd to have the stats shooting and nobody's tagging =@

♥ Friday, May 19, 2006 ♥

7:04:00 PM

argh. MYE really sucks a great deal. i dun understand why after like nine and a half years of education i cant perform well!! i'm so fcuk up irriated. my results are in a big mess and it seemed like no amount of studying and getting help from others seemed to be working well..

i cant believe it when i realise i can actually fail my amath (i think mdm ho goanna hunt me down soon =X). my emath sucks like shit also.. i like only get a b4??! OMG. my baldie mr lee goanna kill me soon i guessed. i really need to focus more on my double maths. how am i suppose to get good L1R5 and L1B4 at this rate i'm gg? combined humanities totally pulled me down.. all thanks to my social studies. i totally write out of pt for the first sub question for the essay. damn it. the rest is still ok one lorr.. chinese.. the worst part was the news article one.. i jus passed it though... i used to be very good in tt one.. =( and the stupid part is tt i do okay for the history paper and the rest of chinese paper. damn it. i think i needed help in all this subjects!!! someone help me pls.

i tink i'm quite surprise for chem and phys especially.. hahas. finally, i've passed phys!! i'm super happy. =D at least, getting a pass for phy can motivate me better, getting my parents, sis and mr lee to shut up. yay.

o lvl chinese's coming up soon.. i'm freakin worried cos i think my chi have dropped quite a lot ever since i've grad from tnps... perhaps i've left all my chi skills there.. lol. and there's only107 days to prelim. add ard 2 weeks and it will be the big o lvl. sounds quite far and yet quite near hor..?

i really needed to buck up in everything. after all, it goanna affect me..

♥ Wednesday, May 17, 2006 ♥

3:10:00 PM

look to ur left... can see the whole row of this year stuffs rite? look under may and june.. most of the dates are for class in sch! only the one on 31st may.. mayb go watch concert.. tt's all. argh. sch sucks.

i'm very worried to go sch tmr. i dun wan to talk to mr fatul.. there's nth good abt the sch as what i've told mr lai already... now, he wans me to go and tell mr fatul, tgt with others.. i hope mr lai forgets abt it.. and mr fatul got no time.. tt's the best man.. actually there's too much things in the school tt we needed to change...

can i be sick tmr? or mayb i skip school? broke my leg? have an accident on the way to sch? i wish one of them could happen.. LOL x) *sighs*

12:00:00 PM

there's no school today!! woohoo! i'm in high spirits given the fact tt i've game from 7.30 till 12pm~ 4.5 hours.. i've very very contented! first time play until so long.. then i be a good jie jie and help my sis in her new maple acct.. sians arh!! only lvl 42.. and mr D already 67!!! grr. he lvl super fast.. last time also not tt fast.. play so much also will sian arh! ppl, help me lvl up fast and quick!!!! i dun like to look like a noob!

actually without sch, life's damn boring... but in sch, life so stressful. it's ironic isnt? haiz. life IS ironic.

♥ Tuesday, May 16, 2006 ♥

10:04:00 AM

LOOK!! it's 16th of may. finally. exams are finally over already! yay!! today's mcq i tink i did pretty badly cos not only i have a flu, i have a headache. plus.. i sleep for 1/2h and do for less than an hour i think. and in the end, it was miss joanna who wake me up! i was in a half daze though. =D plus, i've got 2 errors already!!! HUMPH.

oh btw, any one tt's going to TPJC choir concert at victoria concert hall? tell me ok? then i wont b too shock if i c u ppl out there cos i might be going there. it's on the 31st of may...

today goanna be boring. cos i still have got 2 more tuitions to go!!! despite the fact i've jus ended my exams. damn...

♥ Monday, May 15, 2006 ♥

4:33:00 PM

PHEW. today's day has been pretty well i shld say. i dun have to tink of what to say, cos we absolutely have nothing much to talk abt anyways. YOU wont even ask me out like the past already. yes, i should listen to wad my heart and my personality tells me to. so, i should jus ignore the stuffs and everything. i think only thru sms(es) will i be talking to you. tt's all. i'm sorry lah... but tt's wad i'm made to be and being nuture up as.

been to KFC with esther chua and we sat at the same place as where we usually sit (but she denies). i wonder what's wrong with tt girl, all the way from kfc to the bus interchange she has been so erms.. panicky. yes, tt's the word. relax girl... u wont see *ahems*

MYE for physics and amath were a killer. i tink i goanna be killed when we get back our results.. and tt, mayb, should be the time when i really shld wake up..

i'll be a different person after the june i guessed.. more study and less play. a person tt shld and mus love more practice paper, less going out, more tuition. yes, i'll be that and i should. as what mr lai says, MYE is only a warm up, there's still PRELIM and O lvl.

btw, a big happy 16th birthday to LIM CHU GUAN!!!
(though i know, you will never be passing by here..) initally wanted to send you some stuffs. but i was too busy... next yr mayb?

♥ Sunday, May 14, 2006 ♥

9:58:00 PM

i wonder wad i shld do when i see u tmr.. act as though i know nothing or wad? sigh. i dunnoe wad to do. somebody teach me pls. or give me a dream or enlightened me. with very much thanks.

pretending seemed to be a second art to me now.

♥ Saturday, May 13, 2006 ♥

9:57:00 PM

i absolutely dunnoe wad i'm thinking in this small brain of mine. i cant seem to concentrate even when i'm finally out of house. seeing my image reflections make it worst. i seemed to be trap in a world which i dun even know. sigh sigh sigh. mayb it's all because of the truth i knew. now, i no longer trust u... or anyone.

i dunnoe wad i still can do... or wad shld i do frankly. i know, i should heed yangpin's advice; be thankful tt i've seen ur true colours.. but yet, i realised u meant so much to me. these years that we have gone through are not like anyhow anyhow jus went through. it's the tears, fun and joy which we have got. if not, i would have already pick up a quarrel or smt with you.

haiz. wadever la. the decision is yours, i'm not anybody who should interfere in it.

♥ Friday, May 12, 2006 ♥

2:56:00 PM

i dun wan that blog address anymore.
all those shall remain as past.
but no way am i going to delete that blog.
it's MY past